Thursday, May 28, 2009

speechless....



Yes im pregnent....and im in my 8th weeks now.



Aku bukan nak mohon simpati sesapa...tapi hnya luahan perasaan yang aku pendam selama ni...

But...
there's is something i found out instead of im pregnent.... there were a big huge cysts in my 'tutt'. Macam satu kejutan utk aku dan suami utk menerima berita ini. Tatkala kami begitu teruja utk mendapatkan anak....ada kisah lain disebaliknya. mungkin ini lah dugaan dari yang Maha Esa. Bayangkan kalau tiba2 anda mmg telah disahkan mengandung...dan kemudian disusuli dgn berita lain yg kurang gembira.... susah nk gambarkan perasaan tu. cuma org2 yg telah melaluinya sahaja dapat rasakan.

" Puan dahlia, ada benda depan baby awk"....aku terkedu.
" Apa benda tu..." sambil melihat ke screen ultrasound.
"Its a cysts...sgt besar...14cm...dan dia betul2 ada kat sebelah baby awk..." dr fatimah series.
" so mcmana ni..." aku gelabah.
" Mmg kena buang...operate...and its a major operation..." saat ni mengalir air mata ku.... sambil memandang suami yg berada disisi....

" mcmana baby saya..."....tnya aku lagi
" Risk mmg ada...1st kena cek whether it is a cancer or not...and then kite akan decide bila nk buang...kalo xbahaya...awk kena tggu kadungan 3-4 bulan utk kukuhkan kandungan....dan kalo merbahaya , kena buang serta merta dan risk of misscarriged is 5%... " mengalir lagi air mata ku...

"...and one more thing is....the cysct came from the ovari..and if ur ovari infected...kite terpaksa buang sebelah..." Ya Allah....berat betul dugaan yang Kau beri kepada ku Ya Allah....

Keluar dari bilik dokter...ibu setia menunggu kat luar.... ibu ckp jgn susah2 hati...aku tahu..jauh disudut hati ibu sedih....ibu mana yg tak risaukan anaknya....kan....

apa yang boleh aku buat sekarang...berdoa...dan berdoa...utk kesihatan aku serta keselamatan kadungan ku....itu sahaja....

note : tggu result sabtu ni...bila nk kena operate....and if ASAP i will be in long Mc's.... be tough yaya....

12 comments:

Husband said...

to my beloved wife...
tabahkan hati..
ingat Allah byk2
segala yg kite dpt ni ade hikmahnya..
sesungguhnya Allah Maha Adil....
Insyaallah semuanya selamat..
kene usaha,doa & redha...
i syg u...

Khemy said...

hi, been a silent reader (link from kechik, my ex-skulmate)
be strong, ok
one thing for sure, Allah 'pandang' awak sebab tu dia bagi awak dugaan macam ni..because He knows you can get through it..Insyaallah..

yayafrdz said...

to hubby : yess...i know... tolong kuatkan semangat i.

to khemy : thanks a lot. Insyaallah...hope me n baby xde pape.

along said...

yaya!!!!
tabahkan hati yer..
tu semua dugaan...
yg penting jaga kesihatan, jaga hati. jgn sedih2 walaupun kita tau awk sedih..
awk mesti kuat k...
hope everything will be ok....
dgr nasihat doktor tau...

yayafrdz said...

to along : thanks. berdebar tggu result sabtu ni. kite pon hope everything ok even kite mmg tetap kena operate. as long as my baby can survive.

Fieran said...

Hi, I'm a silent blog reader. Got directed here via littlemisskechik's blog. *HUG* You'll be alright. It's good that they find the cyst now itself. My mother had an ovarian cyst the size of a tennis ball for a very long time. She always thought the pain was gastric. Eventually she had to do a hysterectomy (removal of her entire uterus). So it is good that they found yours now itself. God willing, your child will be strong enough to go through this. Good luck and take good care of yourself.

yayafrdz said...

to fieran : thnks dropping by.and thanks also 4 d support. Hope everythings goes fine....

little miss kechik said...

oh my gawd.... yaya...
i cant believe i found out bout this so late..
insyaAllah.. be strong ok...
will be praying for you...

L'Touch said...

o ma gush dear... so sori.. be strong ya dear yaya!. Insyaallahhh sumenyer akan slamat!..

takecare ya.. :)

yayafrdz said...

to kak ateh : thanks dear. i keep on praying....

to lya : thanks dropping by.

mommy amaar said...

...."kalo merbahaya , kena buang serta merta dan risk of misscarriged is 5%... " tpi kuasa Allah 100% so sabar, tawakal n banyakkan doa, we all doakan yang terbaik untuk Yaya and Faris..

yayafrdz said...

to kak suria :
thanks kak suria...and thanks jugak lawat yaya bwk ammar...geram dgn ammar yg cute gile.